MAYBE

You got me living in the maybe

Maybe you were scared Maybe you stopped loving me

Maybe I missed something right in front of me

Maybe there was someone Maybe I was the only one

If closure had a number I’d still be stuck on calling

Trying to get your silence to admit what really happened

May-be…

May-be…

You left me living in the maybe

No fight No scene

No warning Just gone

Your side My bed

Your voice My head

Coffee cup still by the sink

Like moving it would make this real

Old texts Scroll back

Read slow Look for cracks

“You good?”

“I’m fine.”

Was that the lie?

Was I holding you close while you were saying goodbye?

Mid-laugh Mid-kiss

What the fuck did I miss?

Were you halfway gone every time you called this “us”?

Maybe you were leaving before I saw the signs

Maybe I keep asking ’cause you never said goodbye

You got me living in the maybe

Maybe you were scared Maybe you stopped loving me

Maybe I missed something right in front of me

Maybe there was someone Maybe I was the only one

If closure had a number I’d still be stuck on calling

Trying to get your silence to admit what really happened

May-be…

May-be…

You left me living in the maybe

Some nights you’re hurt

Some nights you’re cold

Some nights I make myself the reason that you chose to go

I made you innocent Made you cruel

Made myself the problem Made myself the fool

That’s what silence does

No facts Just space

When you don’t get answers you start living in the maybes

Maybe someone else

Maybe your head got loud

Maybe you needed freedom

Maybe I wore you out

Maybe…

Fuck.

That’s the trap.

Every answer I invent gives me another reason to look back

I’ve been calling it closure

It ain’t.

It’s hope.

Maybe I don’t miss the answer

Maybe I miss believing there still is one

What if you called tonight?

What would you even say?

Would one sentence give me back all the sleep I gave away?

Maybe closure ain’t knowing why

Maybe it’s finally getting tired of asking

You had me living in the maybe

Maybe you were scared Maybe you stopped loving me

Maybe I missed something

Maybe…

I’ll never know

Maybe there was someone Maybe I was the only one

If closure had a number I don’t think I’d call it

You can keep your silence

I don’t need to solve it

May-be…

Funny how it don’t hurt the same lately

Let it stay a maybe

I can still walk away

May-be…