Maybe

You got me living in the maybe

Maybe you were scared

Maybe you stopped loving me

Maybe I missed something

right in front of me

Maybe there was someone

Maybe I was the only one

If closure had a number

I’d still be stuck on calling

Trying to get your silence

to admit what really happened

May-be…

May-be…

You left me living in the maybe

No fight

No scene

No warning

Just gone

Your side

My bed

Your voice

My head

Coffee cup

still by the sink

Like moving it

would make this real

Old texts

Scroll back

Read slow

Look for cracks

“You good?”

“I’m fine.”

Was that the lie?

Was I holding you close

while you were saying goodbye?

Mid-laugh

Mid-kiss

What the fuck

did I miss?

Were you halfway gone

every time you called this “us”?

Maybe you were leaving

before I saw the signs

Maybe I keep asking

’cause you never said goodbye

You got me living in the maybe

Maybe you were scared

Maybe you stopped loving me

Maybe I missed something

right in front of me

Maybe there was someone

Maybe I was the only one

If closure had a number

I’d still be stuck on calling

Trying to get your silence

to admit what really happened

May-be…

May-be…

You left me living in the maybe

Some nights

you’re hurt

Some nights

you’re cold

Some nights

I make myself the reason

that you chose to go

I made you innocent

Made you cruel

Made myself the problem

Made myself the fool

That’s what silence does

No facts

Just space

When you don’t get answers

you start living in the maybes

Maybe someone else

Maybe your head got loud

Maybe you needed freedom

Maybe I wore you out

Maybe…

Fuck.

That’s the trap.

Every answer I invent

gives me another reason to look back

I’ve been calling it closure

It ain’t.

It’s hope.

Maybe I don’t miss the answer

Maybe I miss believing

there still is one

What if you called tonight?

What would you even say?

Would one sentence

give me back all the sleep

I gave away?

Maybe closure ain’t knowing why

Maybe it’s finally getting tired

of asking

You had me living in the maybe

Maybe you were scared

Maybe you stopped loving me

Maybe I missed something

Maybe…

I’ll never know

Maybe there was someone

Maybe I was the only one

If closure had a number

I don’t think I’d call it

You can keep your silence

I don’t need to solve it

May-be…

Funny how it don’t hurt

the same lately

Let it stay a maybe

I can still walk away

May-be…